I, You and They

I have what i never had
I feel what i never felt
I do what i never did
I say what i never said

But then why it is that someone else is having what i have
But then why it is that someone else is feeling that i don't feel
But then why it is that someone else is doing what they should not do
But then why it is that someone else is not saying what i wish they say

I can't have it complete until the world let me have it
I can't feel it all until the world let me believe that i can feel it
I can't do it on my own until the world let my hands free
I can't say it from within until the world turns and hear me

I can't be me until i am let to be me
I can be we only when its you and me

One could be won

If there is one thing
I would want to think
But its new with every blink

If there is one life
I would want to live
But there are many lifes that make me strive

If there is one emotion
I would want to give it entire consideration
But its so much for my saturation

If there is one try
I would put all efforts to imply
But it also makes every bit of me cry

If there is one side
I would make everything else hide
But when i see myself in a circle i know life never lied

If there is one me
I would have just let it be
But i know at the end i would be the only one to plea

Jist of Just !

The cloud is not white
Its the brightness in life

The other color of cloud is not just another grey
Its a play that gives us way to a romantic bay

The shower of that cloud is not just few drops
Its that touch which reminds how love for self crops

The shape of that cloud is not just a pattern
Its the world to which the grounded world has put curtain

The movement of that cloud is not just for a moment
Its that moment that says forget for once the life's movement

The cloud is not just the cover for the sky
Its the sign for us to look up high

The cloud is not away and separate
Its the one to get us together

Its Not what It is !

Its not that i cant speak without you
Its just that i can talk only with you

Its not that i cant live without you
Its just that i wish to leave if its not with you

Its not that i don't understand the answer to why
Its just that i wish you had reasons for "i"

Its not that i am unhappy to let you go
Its just that i am sad for me to hold on

Its not that i have tears rolling down from my eyes
Its just that i know tears roll in when you look high

Its not that i look for you around
Its just that i know you are the only one for me to surround

Its not that i am remembering you
Its just that i am wondering what is still remembered by you

Its not that i want to raise my hand towards you
Its just that i don't want that craze for touch go away from you

Its not that i don't enjoy even if its a joke to blast
Its just that i have a grin that i borrowed from our past

Its not that i am not here
Its just that i can only be at one place at a moment and thats there

Its not I
Its just that its Mine

Enter an Exit

I enter an exit

I feel some emotion thats so mixed

I longed for longing hours to last

And when they last i realize its indeed the last

I am at the edge of old and new

I am at the edge of dry and dew

I am at the edge of no and yes

I am at the edge of despair and fair

I am at the edge of unknown and acknowledged

I am at the edge of leaving days gone by and living new days near by

I don’t know if i am nervous

I don’t know if i am curious

I have been talking to world in thoughts

I want to be with my thoughts to show how it works

I want to look back to see who  looked forward to me

I want to move back to see who walked besides me

I want to prove it now that earlier also it was just me

I had a pillow earlier also by my bedside

But there was hardly netime when i saw it dry

Its still wet but the warmth now is unmet

It still gazes me but now it more amazes me

I had a body earlier that seemed broken

I have same body now that still seems broken

My legs are moving separate and running ahead to reach unimagined destination

My head is highing separate and looking forward to see unimagined creation

I am in rush now

I am at peace now

I am too strong now

I am more weak now

I am quite big now

I feel way too small now

I know i would make it one day

Have i already seen that day

Am i looking forward or dreaming under

I am insecure as i am getting more secure

I am unhappy as i m getting reason to b happy

I am being myself or heading to define I

I want to live this day

I want to kill that lived all this way

I exit the longing days

I enter my last day

Know a No

If i knew I could speak I would have sung
If I knew I could live I would have died forever
I want to move a little step just to see that the round earth has made me move crore steps behind
I want to kneel down just to see that underneath lies all the love I want to find
Why a wet pool is required for that chill swim
Why terrible tears are required for that one grin
What is it that I seek
What is it that I call peace
What is it that is just for me
What is it that I always need
What is it that is taking away me from me
Why world is just a place now
Why friend is just a mate now
Why luck is just so unfair now
Why love is just a word now
I know I can fly without wings
I know I can stay without few things
I know I can sing without strings
I know now I can survive without any feelings
It seems "To whom it may concern" is concerned to me only
It seems all "Do not Disturb" tags are note to me only
Companion is a thing now and not a being
Worth is by work now and not by birth
Life is an illusion now and not any engine
I am seeking fusion now and not confusion
Would you listen to me if I remain silent
Would you smile with me if I start to cry
Would you stay along if I want to be alone
Would you live my life if I decide to die.

In Middle of a Corner

Chords do break
Strengths do fail
The air which was chilling earlier
seems to be too cold now.
What that boiled earlier
seems like bouncing drop in air now.
I wanted to gather stones earlier
but they were for home that makes me happier.
I want to gather stones now too
but they are to raise me from ground to dome.
Its not that I am changed
Its just that I am created now to gain.
I moved I ran to chase them
I wished they turned around to look at me
I wished they smiled at me cared for me
I wished that I never had those wishes.
But today, I want to wish more want
I move I run today also
I chase them today also
I aspire and respire for them to turn around
For them to know that now I don't surround.
I am at heights now
I am over the stones now 
Its lonely at that height
Its aching with those stones
but I still respire for my chase
To see that awe which i never attained.
Living a story has been easy
Now zeal to create a story keeps me busy
I have been driving life but not being driver
I have been giving best but never got better.
Talked enough about Why till now
But today Why Not is better i know.
There is entry to new things from every exit door
It leaves something behind but welcomes a lot more.
Every chord breaks for new to come
Every strength weakens to strengthen in return.